Sometimes....

Dear Friends & Family,

Sometimes I feel like a victim. A victim of this disease, a victim of this universe. I feel the world spinning around me and do not feel a part of it. I watch as families take vacations, as people play at the beach, as commuters go back and forth to work, as people all around me talk and make plans. I hear it, I see it and I do not feel a part of it. Sometimes peoples’ stories of a bad day, troubles with friends or problems at their jobs, seem so simple to me. I feel I have another level to my soul that no one can reach or understand. I asked Curt if he felt the same way and he said “yes”.

Sometimes I feel life is too hard on us right now. Are we not dealing with enough? Corbin breaks his hand, Clarissa breaks her hand, Cayden’s truck gets broken into; causing doctor visits, long waits, talking with detectives, these are all things that take away from our family time and zap my (our) energy.

We are just living day to day. We can’t plan for the future, we can’t go anywhere, we can barely communicate with each other. Curt is uncomfortable and frustrated. It is hard to watch him suffer. It is hard to watch his health decline day by day. It is physically hard to care for him. It is emotionally hard to try to live life as normal and be energetic and positive. It is hard to watch the kids’ hearts being torn apart. I feel all the time that my heart is heavy and breaking, for them, for Curt, for me and for all that know him.

Thank you for all the texts to Curt! He has really enjoyed hearing from so many people. If you would like to brighten his day, send a text to him at (310) 994-7747.

Love,
Cindy, Curt, Clarissa, Cayden & Corbin

30 Years

Dear Friends & Family,

This year marks the 30th Olympic Summer Games, and it is also the 30th year of The Curt & Cindy Story. August 4, 1982 was our first kiss and the beginning of our life together. Unlike the Olympic athletes, we didn't have to train hard, jump over hurdles or battle rough water to get to where we are. With Curt's easy-going attitude and my ability to organize and plan, things have been pretty easy for us. We never longed for fame or medals but dedicated our lives to each other and lifted the other up when needed. It has not been a relationship of endurance but rather a long gingerly stroll along side one another. Now more than ever he is my hero. He battles each day just to get through the day and I am his biggest cheerleader, beside him all the way. Thank you for your continuing prayers for his comfort.

Curt's days are pretty mellow and sometimes lonely. If you get a chance send him a text of a simple hello, a thought or a joke (make sure to include your name). (310) 994-7747. Thanks!

Love,
Cindy, Curt, Clarissa, Cayden & Corbin

Taking Curt for a ride in my new car!

I got to go flying again! Thanks Mike (and pilot Jeff)!

Flowers and chocolates from Curt to celebrate our 30 year dating anniversary!
He wrote the note on the box for me (with a little help from Clarissa)!

And some Opus One wine (thanks Ed & Julie), so delicious!!
I love you Curtis Mitchell!