Dear Family & Friends,
Below you will find photos of our seemingly happy life. I don’t know how much longer I can go on pretending that all is ok when it is not. How can I feel so alone while I am surrounded by so many people? I asked Curt the other day, “How do you feel when friends around you are talking, laughing, making plans for the future and living their lives?” He answered, “It doesn’t bother me, it only bothers me that I can’t help you more as far as prepping the house for parties and cleaning up after. It is hard for me to sit and see you work so hard.” His grace annoys me at this point in our conversation.....so I go on with more questions......I won’t go into those today, I want him to feel what I am feeling. He is the only one that “gets” me. We used to feel the same about everything; friendships, people, politics, religion, finances, etc. Since the disease, we are on different wavelengths; I am preparing for a life without him and he is preparing to die. If only I could be as gracious and dignified and accepting as he is.
At church on Sunday we learned that the Apostle Paul encourages Christians to live joyfully in every circumstance. This evening Curt and I were discussing “being joyful” in our circumstance. We agreed that we have lived joyfully for over two years with this disease and we are growing weary. Our hearts are heavy. We will pray for more grace and joy, please pray with us.
Cindy, Curt, Clarissa, Cayden & Corbin
|Happy 12th Birthday Corbin!|
September 3, 2011
|Corbin was "flocked" for his birthday! We woke up to flamingos all over our front yard.|
|Corbin wanted a big brownie for his "cake" this year!|
|Corbin had a great time celebrating with his friends. They swam and played on the giant obstacle course!|
|The party continued into the evening. |
After his friends left, it was time for teenagers and adults to join in the festivities.
|Nathan, Jacob, Alec, & Aiden|
|Staying warm by the fire. Barbara, Joyce, Kelli, Lisa, Jaime, Carolyn & Bill|
|Jacob, Connor, Clarissa, Emily & Megan|
Krystal, Zach, Jessica & Joey
|George & Denise & Curt!|
|Steve-O, Janet, Ray & Nazila|
|Cayden's First Day of School|
Sorry for the mug shot looking photo!
|Corbin's First Day of School|
In my morning rush, I didn't think to try and take a bit
of a creative photo. Sorry for the mug shot also!
|Clarissa & Jessica on their way to their workout. |
They surprised their personal trainer in wacky 80's outfits!
|Dinner at Nelson's at Terranea in Palos Verdes|
With Jim, Colleen, Paige & Chloe
Celebrating Larry's Birthday at Northwood's Inn
Happy Birthday Larry!
Corbin adds so much light and laughter to our lives!